It’s always 3 am that swirls my brain to cyclonic action. I normally wake in the middle of what some will call a dream, I believe they are messages to be deciphered. When the mind is finally calm, and it’s allowed to shut down, to function without consciousness or cohesiveness, the most brilliant and truthful moments happen. So I always try to believe the messages my mind is giving me and find their purpose or meaning.
Recently some part of this dream state has awoke a piece of me that I buried far away. The bolder, selfish and brutally honest side of me.
My cyclonic state has now been opened to the world. It is not often that my thoughts are so clear. I believe my dream state and conscience state are melding together. I have allowed my awakened mind to deeply connect with this hidden messages.
It has been a long time since I have decided to be selfish, to not avoid what I know I am worth. This is the state where my bubble will only protect me and becomes so strong, I will seem cold and emotionless. The truth is my shields for others is down and in full force for just myself. I am in self preservation mode.
I had awoken in the middle of a field, I was standing all alone, but in my hands are heavy weights and there are chains around my ankles, above me a cloud with lightning and thunder, while the rest of the field shines brightly. It was in that moment, I seen myself walking towards me, I reached for all these things holding me from the sun. When I look back to my own self, I see the face of a lion where my face should have been, it is now that my second self is in a gallop coming right towards me.
I awake from my cyclonic state, and I begin to decipher. What is this dream trying to tell me? There can only be one explanation. It’s time to self preserve. My mind is trying to protect itself from anything causing me harm. My dream is telling me to guard myself and giving me a clear message that for myself I should carry on.
I am always a lioness for those to whom I love, but who is the lioness of me? Who will stand and protect and be my unconditional love? You silly woman I tell myself, it even showed you that you standing alone with in the storm, You are the galloping lion coming for yourself, to save you and you alone. You are the only unconditional love.
So pardon me as you begin to see the woman who is use to standing alone. She is not my normal person, I keep her hidden away but she is long over due and she is here to stay.
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