“When the cock crows,
the darkness still fills the sky. Crickets and cicadas play in harmony, and the loudest of crows begins his call from across the water. I want to grasp him and give him a good shake while screaming, ‘The sun has not crested!’
It is no matter if the sun crests or not, for this bird crows every day from 5 am until 5:10. I can envision him standing there with his head back and his wings all in a tussle, a little pocket watch waiting for the clock to strike 5 am. Thinking to myself, ‘In 10 minutes, it will be just you and the sounds of chirps again.’
Then sometime between 5:15 and 5:30, the train horn will blow, and the clanking of the train may lull me back to sleep. Odd, I know, but somehow the train sound has been my sleep trigger, a type of white noise to me. Ahh, a second train, and this one is long. The conductor is not a nice man; he honks over a dozen times to pass over the street at 5:21 am. Indeed, the conductor and the cock have something in common: a lack of respect for those sleeping.
With all the sounds around me, my senses are sparking, and the smells and sounds begin to make my skin crawl. It’s as if the irritation of the sounds has somehow affected my nervous system. I feel like things are crawling on me, and then pow! A zap of lightning strikes my back, and I sit straight up.
The body’s response to sounds is a real thing. People have little understanding of how the body relates to the atmosphere around them. I often speak to people about Reiki, never delving too deep into how in-depth my understanding of it is or crossing the boundary of them looking at me like, ‘Oh, she is so weird.’
For years now, I have studied the body’s reaction to the atmosphere around it and how energy is the key to healing one’s body and spirit with a calm energy. Since being a child, I have always seen things differently than most. Sounds could either calm me or excite me. When they excite me, it’s as if there’s no stopping the heaviness that sets in. Closing my eyes and practicing slow breathing (meditation) has been a tool better than any big pharma drug has ever offered.
Having some part of my dog touching me is also a key to calming any negative energy that has seeped in from frustration. The concept of energy is foreign to many, but to me, it is second nature. If I am sitting with someone, I can feel things that others do not. It is not a gift but rather a fine-tuning of one’s body and mind being closely connected.
The most difficult part to explain to some without them thinking you are insane is how you feel others’ energy merge with yours. If someone is wound up and comes around me, instantly my energy connects to them, trying to ground their energy to a calmer state. For example, I will use a recent event while traveling. I am out of state with my dear friend. As soon as I get there, I feel her energy as a big fiery ball spinning out of control that is just about to explode. I grab her and draw her close to me, leaching some of this fire and taking it into myself, attempting to control its spin.
Now that I have taken a small part of this energy into myself, I will focus on it and it alone. Once I have stilled it, I will give it back, hoping that the calm within it will bring peace to the other energy within her. I will also give some of my own energy to her as I know she needs more than this small part of calm to begin to heal. To me, energy is no different than a pill that you take. It will not provide an instant outcome when greater work is needed. Indeed, there are times energy is instantly felt, but I find that when you rush for instant impact, the outcome is also fast and not as lasting. However, from time to time, I give a zinger so people can feel it. An endorphin response is sometimes needed for a person with a lot of negative energy.
People use the phrase ‘You have a lot of negative energy’ as a weapon against others. Oh, it bothers me, the lack of understanding when I hear this. You can focus your energy but cannot control if something negative has attached itself. For example, on this trip, there was a neighbor lady I will refer to as Ms. Crabtree. She is the type of energy I attempt to avoid. She has allowed herself to not shed one piece of negativity, and it shows, very unappealing to most everyone she comes across.
Knowing my friend is healing from matters in her life, I know I cannot leave this burning ball of negativity to engulf her. So, on day one, my work begins. My first meeting with this woman was unimpressive, even though her goal was to impress. She clearly stated 5 times in under 10 minutes that she just retired from the association board of the complex. She placed her hand on her hip as if this was a Golden Globe moment.
I connected with her in that very moment, leaching her energy in huge amounts and forcing a part of my energy into her that I try not to use often. I keep her energy as she walks out the door, and my body is shocked by how unfamiliar this energy is. I wait until I see her again and make physical contact to return not just calm energy but timid energy. The next morning, she approaches to brag herself up one more time. I reach for her arm, and my hand brushes down it in a kind way. She looks at me with a strange look, feeling the foreign energy.
As I step back and begin to weed a flower bed, she hovers over me like a parasite, and I can feel her energy crawling all over me. I stand, put my shoulders back, and take a deep breath. She is boasting about her landscaping work, but it’s not impressive. In this moment, I reach inside and grab hold of her energy, making it timid. I also grab the parts that are afraid and sad. I slam back fear, intimidation, and joy into her energy to fill the void. She takes two steps back, almost stumbling, and shivers. She’s confused, not knowing how or why this overwhelming feeling has come over her. She just knows she wants to get away from me.
It’s 2 days before she returns, now with a much more humbled self. She compliments the landscape work I’m doing and boasts gently about her own work. I stand and point at an overgrown section of the flower bed attached to hers, asking if she minds me fixing it. Being that she now has as much of my energy as her own, she backs away, saying she doesn’t mind. She has no choice but to open her energy wall to me. My energy is extremely attached to me and wants back. The energy I’ve worked on for her is ready to fill the void of my own that I’m taking back.
Now timid and with a weird sense of joy, she asks if I’d be interested in doing her flower beds. There we go, a major change. It has worked.
“Now each time this woman comes, she is complementary and is now showing me her softened side. The work I had just done, focusing on the outer layer of her and looking beneath all that ugly energy that had attached itself to her, revealed a weak, sad, and very lonely person. She now stops by daily to compliment and offer any assistance she can. No more boasting or being the cock crowing to hear his own sound. She is now like the first train rolling by, bringing harmony.
I’m not sure if my story has given you a better understanding of how energy works, but maybe it will encourage you to take time to see deeper into people. See what they represent, not just the surface, and who and what they truly are. Sometimes the outer layer doesn’t define them at all; it’s a negativity that has attached itself. Please take the time to heal each other and see individuals for who they truly are. This poor woman was trapped behind a ring of negative energy, festering from wounds you cannot see. She was broken, afraid, and beneath it all, a kind soul who just wants to be loved.
If you find yourself being shadowed by a shroud of negativity, I recommend finding a quiet place and asking a trusted friend to come sit and meditate with you. Maintain physical contact with the person and have some quiet moments just sitting together. Energy will do some of its own work; just be still, be silent, and allow your mind to clear. Reevaluate what is bringing you down, and try to remember that it’s just a small thing, and many other wonderful things can outweigh it. Be blessed and be kind.”
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